Well, it happened and the earth didn’t crack open and swallow me up which is a relief. I am 40. Its weird but okay I guess. Better than the alternative.
Which would be death.
I thought I would have a better handle on who I am and my place in the world at this age. I thought I would have more money. I thought I would be thinner. I thought I would have traveled more places. I thought I would have more kids. I thought I would still have my mother.
It’s all okay, I am fine, fine, fine.
I am fine because the alternative is a huge pain in the ass.