Posted in Uncategorized on July 7, 2008 | 1 Comment »
As a freshman I was alittle too Madonna at a nightclub for my own good during the daylight. I love my dead grandfathers plaid wool pants and my grandmother’s hand-me-down beaded sweaters and lace socks. My hair is gigantic and curly and my eyeliner black and my lipstick red.
You are preppy but with a foul [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on July 3, 2008 | 4 Comments »
When you move in, I just can’t believe it. You are tall, long blond hair, round lens, ride a Harley and are a biologist. And a bartender on the weekends. Of course there is a girl whom you have loved forever and a wife you were married to that produced a little girl who is [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on June 28, 2008 | 5 Comments »
The corner of the bar is cramped and the high backed stools with wide seats allow me to curl up like a cat on them and watching you talk with your hands makes me purr. Keening and stretching to find the light that will make you see me. The more we talk the more [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on June 26, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I should have known that meeting someone for the first time when they pull down your pants when you are making some kind of announcement about too many people smoking pot in the stairwell and where the hell did all this hay in my living room come from and is that a fucking kitten is [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on June 21, 2008 | 3 Comments »
My phone rings at 10pm and its a school night and he says, come see my new car. I say, I can see it in the daylight and its a school night. He says, come on, don’t be like that. Oh come on already. I am going to be outside, downstairs in your parking lot [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on June 15, 2008 | 4 Comments »
My shoes were pretty but gave me wicked blisters. That price I paid for beauty when I knew them before…the not eating, the vomit, the excessive exercise paled in comparison to how much the one of 4 blisters on my feet pain me this morning. A little skin rubbed off and exposing a weepy sore [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on June 13, 2008 | 5 Comments »
blahblahblah, right?
So now I don’t know where to begin because it feels like the beginning again. There are many things spinning around in my head that don’t feel too personal as the personal shit was taking up a LOT of room. All the room inside my brain in fact. Thank goodness I am not in [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on May 29, 2008 | No Comments »
While this has been this nice and neat and tidy and faux expressive venue to express myself, in the words of Inigo Montoya, Let me splain, no let me sum up…
I can’t write about anything. I am boring and the interesting things are too personal lately.
Maybe I don’t want to write about what an asshole [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on May 27, 2008 | 4 Comments »
It wouldn’t be the first time and yessiree this is the last time that it will occur to me to wonder. Dropped off the face of the earth whether I like it or not and maybe yessiree I do. Dropped off the face of the earth because I can and I will and I did.
It [...]
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Posted in Uncategorized on May 22, 2008 | 4 Comments »
That churning feeling of something spinning
inside me, like a cord broke free flapping againt the engine
The will to grab that end and make it fast, attach it
to something real and meaningful is useless
Useless because when I catch it, if I caught it
I couldn’t hold it anyway.
You make these choices and walk along the line
Down [...]
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