because I fucking said so

yesterday at the pool Chica and I wait for brother to go and get his damn flippers on so we can walk to the car and she is talking to me in that horrid whiny voice that inspires my inner voices to smother her and I say,
“Chica, even if you were on fire, and talked [...]

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smoke and mirrors

The corner of the bar is cramped and the high backed stools with wide seats allow me to curl up like a cat on them and watching you talk with your hands makes me purr. Keening and stretching to find the light that will make you see me. The more we talk the more [...]

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A general downward spiral

I should have known that meeting someone for the first time when they pull down your pants when you are making some kind of announcement about too many people smoking pot in the stairwell and where the hell did all this hay in my living room come from and is that a fucking kitten is [...]

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Just like you said it would be

My phone rings at 10pm and its a school night and he says, come see my new car. I say, I can see it in the daylight and its a school night. He says, come on, don’t be like that. Oh come on already. I am going to be outside, downstairs in your parking lot [...]

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Its like finding out Santa is just a crock of shit

My shoes were pretty but gave me wicked blisters. That price I paid for beauty when I knew them before…the not eating, the vomit, the excessive exercise paled in comparison to how much the one of 4 blisters on my feet pain me this morning. A little skin rubbed off and exposing a weepy sore [...]

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So its a lot of fucking pressure, you know?

blahblahblah, right?
So now I don’t know where to begin because it feels like the beginning again. There are many things spinning around in my head that don’t feel too personal as the personal shit was taking up a LOT of room. All the room inside my brain in fact. Thank goodness I am not in [...]

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